4/30/08

My children humble me...

Here recently I've been so caught up in what all is going on, that I've become a bit overwhelmed. Unfortunately I was selfishly believing that I was the ONLY one who was feeling this way, but I truly had my eyes opened tonight. Norman is at a military thing on base, and I was having a nice evening with the boys. We all ate pork chops, and veggies and warm bread, and were just having a cozy time. After I put Chaser to bed, Eli and I started his Bible story. We did the lesson, and then he had the coloring sheet to go with the lesson, and he asked me in such a quiet voice if I would color with him. I asked him if he was okay, and he said that he was sad to move. He told me that he was scared to leave this house because he loves it so much, and that he was worried because he didn't know what he would do since his best friends won't be next door anymore.

I did the best I could to tell him that we have been so blessed here with our wonderful home, and the best of friends, and I told him that I was sad too, but that there is so much to look forward to. I tried to tell him about the big swimming pool we will have, and lots of day camps to take advantage of, and the sports teams and little league teams he can be a part of...

From there, we brushed teeth and went upstairs for a story and then a prayer. He just looked so small curled up under his covers, so I lay next to him and held him while we prayed for peace about the move. When I said "Amen" and opened my eyes...my sweet little angel was fast asleep, and all I could do was cry. My little precious Eli - the child who is so fiercely independent and strong, is still just a child...a baby. And there is nothing I can do to take his fears away about the move. It is so humbling to see life thru the eyes of a child. All I can do is pray for him to have peace and reassurance, and do the best I can to help him. It just hurts to see that we have come to a point with him that I cannot shield him from everything. That is a bitter realization, but one I guess we all come to. *Dear Lord, please shield my baby from the harm in this world and help heal the hurt and fear in his heart. My babies are everything to me...*

1 comment:

Christy said...

OMG, Stacey, that made me cry! I hope that you all have a smooth transition into your new home. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}